Dear Mum
Today is the first day of writing these letters to you.
Tomorrow it will be 2 years and 7 months since you left us. It doesn't seem real that so much time has passed since we last saw you.
I was heavily pregnant at the time. Amelia was born six weeks later, though she was actually due four weeks and 2 days after you died. She decided that she was far too comfy inside to come out, in actual fact she ended up being pulled out kicking, though not screaming!
I've been finding a lot of things tough recently. The girls are growing up so fast, I just can't get over that you are missing all of this. Megan was born just one year, two months and 10 days after Amelia. A definite accident, but one that I would do all over again because she is just as gorgeous as her big sister.
You would love them so much Mum if you could see them. They look alot like Paul but I think they are getting more like me every day, personality wise especially! Amelia's taken to carting herself off to bed when she gets bored, I used to do that remember, but as a teenager not a baby! And Megan, well she's already going through the terrible twos and shes only just one! She has proper, Marianne, style strops already!
At the moment while I'm writing this, Amelia is climbing under the tv unit shouting and talking in her semi-understandable baby language, while Megan is following her around, trying to copy her!
I have a big picture of you on the wall in our living room, I like to think that you're watching over them for me while I'm not in the room, though I know you're not, that you're sleeping peacefully. But it helps me to think that.
I wish I could hug you one more time. Wish I could hold your hand one more time. Hear your laugh again. I miss you so so so much. Not a day goes by where I dont miss you.
Love you always
Maggie xxxxx
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